Sunday, June 14, 2015

REFLECTION AFTER SECOND PAPER ON GLASS HOUSE
  
  I find it so hard to put my words onto paper.  It is so much easier to talk aloud but when I sit and try to write, I find myself getting so frustrated.  I type, I highlight, I delete. And this goes on for quite a bit until I can manage to get the words out to at least half way of what I am trying to communicate. 
    
 
I find myself not knowing which way I want to go with something, sometimes going in ten different directions.  I usually know where I want to end, just not sure which path I want to use to get there.  This paper was especially hard for me, I don't know why I struggle so much, maybe I overthink it.
 
After finishing each paper, I literally feel exhausted, and drained.  I can only compare it to "white coat syndrome", where just the thought raises your blood pressure, even though it is not really anything painful.
 
I look forward to more papers, as weird as it may seem, anytime you can improve on a weakness, it makes a person so proud and accomplished.  I truly feel like Rocky, except I didn't run up stairs and there isn't any music playing in the background, and to be honest I don't even know what song was actually in the movie... But we will just go with it, because it seems like a good comparison,  :)

2 comments:

  1. Hi Monica,
    I am still struggling with my Thesis and organizing my paragraphs. I change my topic/theme over and over again which I think hurts me.
    I too look forward to week five maybe because it is closer to the end, lol. I do think I am picking some things up.
    Hang in there, I know it overwhelming but you can do it.


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  2. :) I'm a better speaker also. You can gauge the audience and adapt! Writing- mine is all over the place! I write and write, then go back and reorganize. Not efficient, but at least my thoughts are down and I can rifle through! We are almost there! 2 weeks!

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